I recently said yes to something I wasn’t supposed to.
I said yes to serving in a worthwhile ministry at my church. Everything about this ministry is wonderful – life changing for some. I saw there was a need and jumped. I jumped before discussing the commitment with my husband, before considering the impact it would have on my kids and most importantly before ever bringing it to the Lord to see if He wanted me there in the first place.
Minutes after volunteering, I was immediately filled with doubt. I wrestled with the doubt wondering if it was the enemy or God, but I learned the next day precisely who was speaking to me.
When I got confirmation of my role in the ministry the following day, I instantly felt nauseous. I have never had such a strong physical reaction to a decision I made like I did that day. It was affirmation that the doubt I was experiencing the day before was the Holy Spirit’s voice planting seeds of doubt for a reason.
That reason? I was disobedient.
I never prayed and asked God if this was a capacity in which He wanted me to serve. I barreled forward like a bull through a red cape without even the forethought of consideration for where my Maker wanted me.
I am grateful for the amount of grace heaped upon me as I notified the committee chair that I would need to pull out of the commitment, but I am even more grateful for the conviction that the Holy Spirit set in motion regarding my disobedience that day.
I wish I could tell you that situations like these are rare in my life, but that is hardly the case. My disobedience rears its ugly head on a daily basis. But this is where the beauty of God’s mercy is demonstrated in full.
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” –Lamentation 3:22-23
Friend, whether you’ve been living in a season of disobedience or just had a moment today where disobedience may have already played out in your life, there is hope. Each day is a fresh start in the Lord – a fresh start for redemption, a fresh start for obedience and a fresh start for hope.
Disobedience doesn’t win when we’re in Christ. His mercy does.
Day 2 Obedience Challenge: Pray. Ask God to reveal two things to your heart. Ask Him to set conviction in your heart when you may act in disobedience. Then, ask that your heart be aligned with His so that you may walk in obedience.