Restless. I always felt that to be such a negative word. When I’d hear people say they are restless in their jobs or restless in their marriages, I always associated that with change – and not a positive change. However, lately I’ve come into a new understanding of the term restless – almost something of a holy restlessness. To provide a little context for this holy restlessness I’ve encountered, I’d have to go back to last fall. I had heard about a book entitled, Sun Stand Still by Steven Furtick. It sounded interesting, so I thought I’d give it a try. This book lit a fire in me. I really think that’s where my restlessness kicked in (more on that later).
Fast forward a bit to this spring. Around February and March I especially began to feel restless in my work. I work in Higher Education and have for the past 5 years and have loved it. I really found a sense of purpose in my work after moving out of the advertising field where I struggled to find this purpose. So it came as a bit of a surprise that I wasn’t feeling as satisfied in my work as I normally had been. That’s when the Holy Spirit began to move on my heart.
This movement didn’t come to a full realization until I actually verbalized it to a friend. I had been telling my husband for a while that I felt something moving in my spirit and was wondering if I was being called to ministry, but not until I actually articulated it was the realization complete. I shared with a friend (over gchat of all places) that I felt the Lord was calling me into ministry, specifically teaching & speaking. I’ve always loved public speaking and have taught both professionally at a university level and also through my church. I feel that God has really gifted me in those areas and teaching is one of my spiritual gifts.
Once I said it “out loud” (ok, really just typed it, but the written word is pretty powerful too!), that’s when everything began to unfold. As I told more and more people and began praying more and more, the restlessness that I originally thought was a negative feeling became exciting and positive.
So with all that being said, I thought that “Restless” would be the most appropriate way to title and start this blog. It’s my hope that through this blog, God will reveal more of Himself to both me and you as we restlessly pursue Him.