I feel as though I might burst – in a good way. Have you ever wrestled with God on something? Or fought him – whether intentionally or unintentionally – on specific plans because it was taking too long to unfold? I have and still do frequently, but a couple of Sundays ago, I got a glimpse of His plan and the abundance in it. Let me give you some background for my moment of near combustion.
As of this past May, my husband and I had been leading and teaching our Connect Group up at our church for about 3.5 years. It was challenging, rewarding, exhausting and growth-filled all rolled into one. During the summer and fall of 2014, the Connect Group was dwindling. We had several couples that had moved and had a very small group of core attendees. In October, we were about to call it quits and dissolve the class all together.
Over the next few weeks, we felt God leading us to either completely step down from teaching or at least significantly limit our teaching/leadership role in the class. We approached our pastor in December about this and thus began the search for a new teacher for our class.
Long story short, three different individuals/couples were approached to teach but for whatever reason they couldn’t commit to the role. When February rolled around and we were still teaching, we became discouraged. Why wasn’t God providing a teacher or leader for our class when He so clearly called my husband and I to step down from our regular teaching duties?
At this point, our pastor suggested we look within our Connect Group for teachers/leaders. So, with much prayer we moved forward with seeking out couples in our class to assume some of the teaching and leadership responsibilities. And whoa, did God act! We had three other couples in the class who were eager and excited to step into such a role and come alongside my husband and I to carry the class responsibilities. It was such a time of abundance! But God didn’t stop there.
In June, we officially launched our teaching team approach for the class. It was great timing as our daughter was born in early July, so we have taken a backseat role in the class while the other couples have soared in their leadership.
Fast-forward to the Sunday that I was about to burst… Because we had a newborn, we had been out for a few weeks. Well, the first week we went back, there were four – count them f-o-u-r – new couples to the class that I had never met. The following Sunday the depth in conversation was what made me want to leap for joy and burst with excitement.
Just a few short months ago, this class was floundering and it’s future looked dismal, but once God got a hold of the plans, things drastically changed.
And this brings me back to the beginning of this post. My husband and I really seemed to inadvertently fight with God on the future of the class. We had a vision that one person/couple would take the reigns and lead the class and only pursued that avenue, but God had a greater plan for growing and developing people within the class. As a result, people are flourishing. Forget the increase in attendance – there is depth, people are being challenged and growing in their faith. It was too much for me in a moment of reflection as I saw that God’s timing is perfect.
God is such a patient God, waiting for his children, who are fumbling and bumbling down here to come to Him and rest in His timing. God answered my question two weeks ago that I was asking him back in February when I was frustrated that we hadn’t found any leadership. He was waiting for us to follow His lead, to be obedient to His plan and watch Him move. I know those seasons of waiting can be draining, exhausting and so wearing. But God knows exactly what He’s doing. His timing truly is perfect – even when He waits.
“As for God, His way is perfect…” -2 Samuel 22:31