She Speaks was an amazing event saturated with fellowship, authentic worship and God-filled moments. There were many things that I learned, but the one resounding theme that came across in every speaker that I encountered was this: it’s not about us, it’s about God; it’s not about the messenger, but the Message.
Going into She Speaks, I had prayed for clarity over where God is calling me and what steps He would want me to take next. And while I had expectations for God to move in this way, He of course met me beyond my expectations. The best way I can describe the weekend is this: God didn’t meet me where I wanted, but where I needed. Jesus knew I needed to hear about my value and worth before I could take any next steps; He also knew that I needed to correct my focus for this potential ministry by placing Him in His rightful place.
I’m so thankful for women who consistently pointed me to the cross. In my notebook that I received, almost every session I took notes on says something to the effect of, “Christ is our ultimate message,” “Become a servant of your message,” or “Don’t seek the position before the ministry. Minister the message and Jesus will bring the crowds.” Over and over again it was said, and over and over again I needed to hear it. The Holy Spirit was speaking loud and clear to me that my heart, intentions and pride needed to be checked. He needed to ensure that when God begins to lead me toward where He wants to take me that my ultimate purpose is to share HIS message, not mine.
Saturday night, I spent some time sitting in God’s presence. I was overwhelmed with gratitude and wanted to praise Him. I went to the scriptures – specifically in Psalms to find words of thanksgiving and stumbled upon these verses:
I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself. -Psalm 89:1-2
I have decided that moving forward, this will be my battle cry, this will be the forming words of the ministry God will use me to create. I want to declare Him, His Name and His ways before mine. To God be the glory forever and ever. Amen.
